Chapter 98 - Undeniably His Mate (Maddy & Nico) Novel Free Online by Roxie Ray

I nodded. “It’s our wolves reacting to each other. They’re both alphas, so they both want obedience from their pack. They’re butting heads.”

“Is it always like this?” Maddy asked.

I shrugged. “I’ve dealt with a few alphas before, but no. Not that intense. There’s always some tension. Guy stuff. Whose dick is bigger-metaphorically, that is.”

Maddy giggled.

I frowned at her. “What’s so funny?”

“Nothing. I just suddenly got a mental image of a bunch of big bad shifter dudes whipping their cocks out and passing around a ruler.”

I snorted. “Okay, bad analogy, but you get the idea-basic male-dominance stuff. I think it’s different with us because we’re mates. It’s weird because when we were fighting, my wolf hated that you weren’t backing down, but it seemed to like it at the same time. It was a weird feeling. We’ve never met a female alpha, so I don’t know if this is always the reaction, but I’m not complaining.”

Maddy nodded. “Maybe we should work on being able to have a normal disagreement. I don’t want every fight to devolve into teeth and claws coming out, followed by us fucking all over the house.”

I laughed. “Well, I guess there are worse ways to argue.” My smile faded, and I became more serious. “This is going to take some adjustment, though. Having two alphas in the same house is going to be tough, but we’ll get through it.”

That night, Maddy fell asleep quickly, and I hoped she’d have a nightmare-free night. Unfortunately, I didn’t fall asleep as easily. I lay there with her for almost thirty minutes, staring at the ceiling, before I got up and went downstairs. The only light was a small night light on a lower outlet in the kitchen. I didn’t turn any more lights on as I headed for the back door and went out on the porch.

Warm air drifted over me as a breeze moved in from the west. I took a deep breath and looked up at the sky. The same breeze that cooled my skin was also pushing clouds to the east, revealing the moon. I stared at the bright white orb. It had moved to another phase and was getting ever closer to the full moon-to our deadline. As I gazed up at it, I felt a strange tug. It was almost like soft, stretchy threads were attached to the moon and were tied to my eyes, heart, and even my balls. Every tender and important part of me felt like it was connected to the moon, being pulled forward, tugged in a direction I didn’t understand.

I’d never had the sensation before. It wasn’t unpleasant, but it was weird. I wondered if it was because I was mated to Maddy. Could she be, somehow, sharing her connection to the moon with me? It made me wonder what else might come about from our mating. What other surprises lay in store for us?

MADDY

My eyes snapped open to a dark room. I was drenched with sweat. Gasping in air, I pressed a hand to my chest. My sternum ached like it was about to break in two. In fact, my entire body ached like I had the worst flu in the world. Nico awoke almost instantly and rolled over to check on me.

“What’s wrong? Maddy? What’s happening?” He fumbled with the light switch on the nightstand and turned on the lamp.

My body felt like it was on fire. My skin was so sensitive that when Nico touched me, I hissed in pain and waved him off, unable to speak. The sound of snarling reverberated through the room, and it took a moment for me to realize it was coming from my own mouth. I couldn’t even attempt to form human words.

Nico straddled me and leaned in. I could hear him talking, but I was too freaked out to comprehend his words. I thrashed around, gasping for air, and then fur started to sprout on my skin. I looked at it and felt more terror at the sight of it. My breathing became more erratic, and I was on the verge of hyperventilating. The panic that flooded through my body pushed the fur away. My skin was all that remained, clammy and sweaty as it was.

I was finally able to tell what Nico was saying. He wasn’t even talking to me. He was talking to my wolf. Trying to calm it down and easing its frustrations. It must have worked because I finally started to feel more normal. It took nearly twenty minutes for the episode to wind down, and I lay there exhausted and panting.

My wolf’s irritation and anger at not being able to come out was rising. I wished she’d find a better way to express herself. This was starting to get ridiculous. Easing myself up onto my pillows, I wiped a hand across my forehead and gave Nico a wan smile.

He sighed and shook his head before pulling me into a hug. “Maddy, you have to stop fighting your wolf.”

“I didn’t think I was.” I didn’t like the whiny sound that crept into my voice.

“I’m not sure if you’re consciously doing it, but it’s pretty evident that you are.”

I sighed and fought back tears. “I didn’t know what was happening. I was scared.”

He nodded and brushed my hair back from my cheek. “I know. You haven’t shifted yet, and the longer you go without shifting, the harder it’s going to be. I think that’s the problem. You’re scared. That fear is holding her back. You can’t fear her. She’s a part of you now. I can see why it would be scary.”

“But-“

“I know what else you’re scared about. I swear I won’t let you turn into Edemas. I promise.”

He’d known what my argument was going to be. It was true. The dreams I kept having made me feel like becoming a power-hungry beast was right on the horizon. Like there was no way to avoid it. Why else would I be having nightmares?

“I’ll go make you some chamomile tea. I’ll be right back,” Nico said, standing and heading toward the door.

As I waited for him, I tried my best to talk to my wolf. Her anger and resentment were like a wet blanket on my mind, suffocating everything else. Nico returned a few minutes later with a mug of tea.

“I’m going to go downstairs and drink it,” I said.

“Babe, you need some rest. Are you sure you don’t want to try and get some more sleep?”

I stood and put a robe on. “It’s fine. I need some time to think anyway.”

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